"Here with Me"- Reality Addiction

I’m goin to write you a letter

I’ll tell you who I am and what I’ve done

I’ve done better

at being someone else most of the time

I never knew about your past

And all the damage that’s been done

Because of that when you look around

You see nothing but a world that has brought you down, brought you down

Would I made it if I hadn’t try so hard

I’ve been standing in this spot for way to long

Chorus:

Maybe I’ll know someday why they left me

Here to stay until then I’ll go crazy

That’s ok cuz I’m here with me

I drew a picture of what my life was like when I was young

Everyone is laughing and playing

It’s sad we all have to grow up sometime

All I wanted was a friend

A hand to hold when things got too be too bad

But you turned around

You walked away so fast I hit the ground

I never thought I would be down here on the floor

Feeling pains I never thought I’d feel before

chorus

so now that I’ve tried

and I’ve waited for you waited for you

I’ll take my time

Chorus x2

I’m missing you face like I’m never going to see you again

What I saw wasnt all and I couldn’t resist

My face dropped and my pulse was stopped

Some ones got to help me back to the top

But why’d we have to go and look so alive
those eyes are smilin bye like a lipstick good bye to me

Its amazing you’d ever like a guy like me

I feel like most of the time I'm just not myself. That I'm just this numb body representation of myself on the outside that doesn't let anything penetrate my surface. And it's weird, I feel that all I know is a world that is difficult for me. Growing up I had the world at my finger tips, in the sense that I could go anywhere and there were endless possibilities. Now it seems like those endless possibilities have become limited. I feel as if I'm just bound to this life like a ball and chain. And I think this song is all about being ok with who you are. That even when everyone else walks out on you, it's ok, because your still there for yourself. That you can always make the situation better by doing something. Plus, it's like, ok, things can't be that bad. I'm still alive and that's enough to be thankful for. And I really look at the verse "I drew a picture of what my life was like when I was young, Everyone was laughing and playing, it's sad we all have to grow up sometimes". I feel like that is so true. It's almost too true. I just want to be happy like I was when I was young.