"Count On Me"- Bruno Mars

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will remind you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh, yeah, yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go, never say goodbye

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

You can count on me 'cause I can count on you

When the world walks out on you, the people that remain are your friends and family. I have had to go through many set back and challenging times lately. Just this past week alone I have been struggling with my health and deciding whether or not I'm doing what I should be doing right now. I have this inner battle going on between what I WANT to do and what my body will LET me do. The two are very different and unfortunately when it comes down to the wire, my body usually wins. Since my diagnosis of my disease all I've wanted was to be a normal person again; to party like a college student, to travel around the world and experience new things just as my peers around have been doing, to participate in sports or at least physical activity of sorts. But as I've matured with my disease and started to cope with it better, my wants/priorities have changed from the need to be normal, to want of just trying to be a little healthier. I just don't want to be in AS bad of health as I currently am. To be able to make it through the day without having to stop and take a break from exhaustion, to not have to worry about having food and water around constantly in order to take my meds, and to just walk safely from my building to my classes.

One thing I must admit though, is that I have really found out who my real friends are through all of this. During the process of losing friends, it's very difficult. But I know the ones that stick around really "have my back" and will be there for me even when my situation gets worse. I know that they aren't going to walk out on me when I need them the most. These relationships have developed into long lasting ones that I believe will probably, with time, just become even stronger. But I know that I can count on them to be there for me, and the same works for them too :)