"Rain Don't Last"- Hope

Mmmm... Mmm... oohhmmm...
Could it be the world's gone colder?
Baby, I'm a losing soul
The more I try it just gets harder
And my pain is getting old
Somebody said that nothing lasts forever
Just the storm so I've been told
But it seems that when it rains it pours

CHORUS
And you know the rain won't last forever
And you know the storm won't always flow
But if the sun don't shine forever
You gotta let it go

2ND VERSE
Sometimes my burdens get so heavy
And it seems too hard to bear

Sometimes I feel so empty
And it feels like no one's there
Somebody said that nothing lasts forever
Just the storm so I've been told
But it seems that when it rains it pours

CHORUS x 2
And you know the rain won't last forever
And you know the storm won't always flow
But if the sun don't shine forever
You gotta let it go

And you gotta let it go...
And you gotta let it go...
Mmmm... Mmm... oohhmmm...

Have you ever realized that when one bad thing happens to you, the world just seems to dump even more problems on you? The main reason for this post is mainly for the first verse.

Baby, I'm a losing soul
The more I try it just gets harder
And my pain is getting old

I just feel that no matter how are I try sometimes, no matter how positive and optimistic I am, things always just get worse. And when she sings, "and my pain is getting old", that is exactly how I feel. I'm just so tired of being knocked down, and being in pain for so long that I just want to know what it feels like again to not be in pain. With my medical situation, it just seems like most of the time that is a childish dream that is unattainable. I guess somethings are just not in the cards for me. I just wish and used to pray all the time to not be in pain anymore...and at this point, I still want that, I just tired of trying. Tired of working so hard, and going through countless trial procedures to even try anymore. I just want a break from hospitals, from doctors and from procedures and treatments. I tired of getting pricked by a needle all the time. I'm tired of being let down by a treatment/procedure that didn't work. I'm tired of not being able to live a normal life. I'm tired of having this medical situation that other people don't have to deal with.

The chorus sounds just like my friends. "Everything will get better some day, it has to." Or "maybe this treatment will be the one that works". Maybe this is just something that I have to let go. I just need to release the tension of having this weigh me down. It's so difficult though to just pretend as if it's not there. This is something that I have to deal with and cope with every day. Haha, if only my medical situation was as easy as rain, and I could just put on rain boots, and a waterproof jacket on and continue living...if only.